First Love Prognosis

So it was going to happen. Hmm. I don't think there was anything odd about this realization. I have not forgotten her. My first love. My first moment of eternal happiness. Yeah. I thought I never gave a fuck about her after the way things turned out to be. But somewhere in the most lonely place of my heart, her memories still remain.It is difficult to forget. Yes,it is. I am not going anywhere, I don't love her. I am sure of that. But still today I feel like I am hollow. My first love. I had seen her. That day. I regret it today. Why? I was overwhelmed by my love for her. I had surrendered myself to something which I never got. Vague aspirations, insipid inspiration and other such lameless activities only brought me down. I am not going anywhere. It is better I forget her. What is the use? I forget you. Go away. Just fucking go away from that place. I have to destroy it. I am happy now. What do you want now? You have tormented me enough. Now please leave me. Please. Just fucking leave me.


I remember you sometimes
Not always
Somewhere in my stupid heart
you stay
You make me cry
you are a fucking sadist
I can't throw you out
I can't keep you in
Its such a fucking pain.

So after some time, you will go away. I will stay where I was. I would not move. Your fucking ghost would never let me leave in peace.

I too

Hmm. I am twenty and I don't have a girlfriend. I too want to have a girlfriend. I too want to love somebody and get back some love in return. But well it seems nothing is going to happen. I am surrounded by some fossilized species of girls who would never understand me.
So. So what? So nothing. Let me just relax and enjoy my days of being single

As Tennyson said it

"ITS BETTER TO HAVE LOVED AND LOST
THAN NEVER TO HAVE LOVED AT ALL"

The saddest part is
I loved..but never got the love back...

A BIG PHUCK AS IF I BLOODY CARE ABOUT THIS

tHE bLOODY bITCHES & tHE fUCKING pIMPS & tHE wORLD aROUND mE

I think I have seen it all. But I know there are some more things left to be seen. I have seen bloody bitches, I have seen fucked up fake titted whores with their tiny cunny hanging out like a piece of trampled flesh, I have seen fucking pimps whose tongue are always on the loose to get some button to press on. I have managed to keep myself away from all those stuff.But I don't know when I shall become one of those pimps myself. I know, the time would come when I would fuck and make a girl cry or I would fuck and the girl would made me cry. One of those bloody bitch type.
So there are many type of girls in these world. some are good. the rest all bad. and there are many types of boys in this world. all know one thing. they would need a pussy at the end of the day. love. I would say fuck love. fuck it like as if the pussy is on fire. showing some external displays of emotion won't take you anywhere. because at the end of the day, all you will want is pussy and pussy is what you will get. and yeah maybe a bit of boobs
All those people who are in love and going through that transient effect or the heavenly wonderment they feel they are in right now, I warn them. Heartache and heartbreak is a constant companion in this journey, so be bit careful. So if you get dumped, don't take up drugs, or try and screw your soul out of your life.
Also again there are people who really love. Soul love. You can call this. But in 2009, there are people who hardly do this kind of thing. Its all about pussy. Its all about the piece of meat. suck. get sucked. Brag among friends about your nocturnal nourishment. Sperm or pussy juice. Which one you got. Or did you failed to perform. We might all be wary how much sensitive this topic is but then I know how much senseless you guys are actually. There is nothing left. the social stigmas attached to it have long gone due to your BAAP bucks or to present it in a more honorific way, your father's wealth. You have wealth, you can do whatever you want. Man is a sucker for pussy, but he is even a bigger sucker for money. Wish both were the same thing.
Why does a boy love a girl...Why does a girl love a boy...
The answer would baffle the best of the lot. I am not sure. There are so many factors. It might be lust only. And it has to be lust. You can't love anyone if you don't have feeling of lust about him or her. Or maybe its total lust.
I have fallen in love.Many a times.I thought they were true love for my burning soul. It would be cooled down by the sudden unexpected rain. But I was wrong. It was a cyclone. and it was all lust.Full of lust. I was ashamed when I realized that. But I did got an erection
So, why I write this. I don't know. I see the fucking decadence around me. I see it all. I can't help it. But it goes on. I am the victim. I am the perpetrator as well. I am the one who sees it all and enjoy like a sadist hidden in the dark corner and grin and wonder when I would download that new porn movie and watch it after one in the morning when most of the world is either sleeping or having sex.